Kid Talk! And update!

So the other day I was having a hard time with Dallin and getting him to go to bed and one time putting him back in bed he got this serious yet sad look on his face and said, "I cried mommy! I cried when I leave Jesus! I sad!" How do you respond to that?! I asked him where Jesus was and he said, " In Heaven!" Then he said very excitedly, "Jesus come to our house and play with my toys mom okay?!" Then he continued to tell me everything they could play with and then told me, "Jesus loves us mommy!" Then he kept repeating that he cried. I was almost in tears and wondering if I should be scared that he's not going to be staying with me much longer! I just held onto him and hugged him and showered him with kisses! After that, he settled down pretty good and went to sleep, but I couldn't go to sleep until I had checked on him a few times!! Kids are pretty close to heaven!

Tepaynga is having a rough go of it lately and is constantly telling me that I don't spend enough time with her and my heart goes out to her! I want things to be the way they were when I was privelaged to stay at home with my kids all the time with all my heart! I think she knows that too, but it doesn't help the sadness go away in her head and heart she tells me! I have to keep reminding her that it is okay to feel sad, but not to let it control her actions and that the Lord can help take those feelings away and replace them with good ones.

I think Mekayla has a hard time as well but is not as vocal! She is loving dance and is excelling at trying to choose the right in as many circumstances as she can. She is constantly asking me if things are okay or not and I'm glad she feels like she can talk to me!

Kaydan is almost 6 months old and gives smiles and hugs and kisses daily! He is amazing! What a joy to be in our family!! He truly is my "gift from God" as his middle name means!! I tried giving him bananas yesterday and he didn't know what to think! Mom is trying to give him small things all the time now to calm him when nothing else does, but I don't know how he feels about that! He gets this perplexed look on his face whenever something new is put in his mouth! I have to keep reminding mom what he can and can't eat! That is a nana for you!

Dallin is a pill! He cracks us up with something new everyday! He is into this thing with POOP though!! He thinks it is funny to add it to everything! Then when we say it, he corrects us and tells us that we don't say that cause it's sick!! He is still struggling with potty training and will only sit on it occasionally now and comes and tells me after the fact that it's in his pants! Any ideas are welcome!!

School is almost over this semester!! But the end means tests and finals both of which I am not good at!! I just hope I get the grade I need to get into the program this fall! I am the 11 year old activity day leader and the stake primary music person and they keep me busy as well as my kids, to focus on things that make me happy and point me in the right direction these days!! The Lord is sure good to us!! I just watched a movie with the kids that what you get out of it is that love gets rid of all darkness. The Lord radiates light and love and without Him in our lives, we would truly be consumed because what else is left besides darkness if you don't have Him and love in your life? Anyway, it just taught me a lesson of how strong love and light really are! Thanks to all you who have been a support and strength and our love and light in a world of darkness!!